Don't Compete & Stop Gossiping. Be your own kind of beautiful!

What is sexy?

Honestly, I'm nut with all the post in internet comparing fat woman with skinny woman.

It's kinda divided woman into two types. Chub and thin. Does it really matter?

Why compete over the look while the most important part is what lies within us.

Never ever judge someone based on the outlook appearance. You can't know someone just from the outside look. 

Chub woman making fun of the thin one. The thin one teasing the chub one. What's the purpose? What are they trying to prove?

For me, those who loves to compare and compete for such thing are the ones that actually feel insecure of herself. 

Beauty lies on the beholder eyes and the sense of beauty is different for everyone. 

Be your kind of beautiful. You like curve? Work for it. You want to be chub (like I do), eat like monster (like me too).

Focus on yourself. It's your goal, why involve others?

If you envy someone, turns it into a motivation instead on finding ways to insult them just because you cannot be like them. 

Sometime our physical look aren't something we can fully control. I eat like monster, 24/7 with food and yet never gain much weight. I have friend who's on strict diet and eat little but gain weigh easily. 

It's not even an option for some case. 

Try to understand each other. Look more into their "inside" than concern more on the outside.

For me sexy is intelligence. Intelligent woman is sexy but the sexiest one is woman with brain and heart.

Someone with big heart and full of knowledge. Kind and gentle but also very independent & reliable. 

She knows her value and what she deserves. Aware of what's worth the fight and what's need to walk away from.

Woman with big goals and work hard to achieve them. Woman who motivates & inspires other. 

That is beauty & sexy.

So stop looking around you to compete and gossip on making fool of other woman. 

Start to focus on yourself. Be what you want to be. Listen to others who speak of advise and motivation and shut your ears to negativity.

Remember, people will always have something to say, whether you do good or otherwise. 

Be smart to ignore that.

I'm not perfect but I'm intend to be better than I was yesterday. 

For those who wronged me, I forgive all of ya. And for those I've hurt, I hope you'll forgive me sooner than later.

Now...I'm gonna work my ass to achieve my goal. It's my life, it's my journey, it's my story. I'll be the one who write my own story. 

To those who suffer from depression out there, I'm telling you this.

I know how hard it is to hit the bottom rock and to go thru the night with your eyes wide open and your mind goes numb. That feeling of wanted to off and disappear to somewhere no one knows you. 

I understand. It's okay to fall no matter how many times but always remember to pick yourself up and stand again, even stronger than before.

It's just a one bad day or one bad month, not a bad life. 

Something better will come sooner than you thought. Have faith in yourself and trust God knows better.


:) 

My little sweet escape...Violet the most adorable pupp!!

Dear Diary,

Here I am again. You see, this might be the thousand times I’ve tried to write something but literally, I have no idea at all of what to write.

I mean…I’m staring at this blank page with my heart pounding to write something but the mind goes…nothing!

This is very frustrating. My heart is speaking like crazy but my mind couldn’t find a way to translate it into real words.

What’s going on, really?

So, I must write something today, doesn’t matter if it sounds like I lost my mind (which I might if I end up writing nothing again).

Okay. Searching… Loading…

(Ten minutes later…)

Okay, let’s talk about one of my puppies.

This is Violet. I know she’s fat, overloaded with my love. J

12 October 2015, we first met and poor little thing, she was very scared when the previous owner pass her to me.

I adopt her from the Zero Society, Miri.

She’s very girly and shy. I remember chasing her under the table or hiding in some corner in the house, but she’s a good girl.

She always behave especially when we have guest coming over and understand every little thing we told her.

As you can see, her hobby is obviously “eat”. I’m a crazy eater, trust me, she’s worst.

Favorite food is cat food or fish. Can related?

Every time I give her the dog food, she goes “naah” or looking at me like “you’re joking, right?”

Oh boy. She’s a cat dog.

Once she’s done eating, her bowl no need to be clean anymore. It’s a “new bowl”. Lol.

Every day I come back from work, even before I open the gate, she’ll lie down…

“Come on. Fast. Rub my tummy.”

That fat tummy need at least a minute rubbing session.

She's one of my sweet escape from this dramatic life ("_). 

Begging for hugssss every time I got back from work! <3

Rub my belly...now!

When I'm about to left to work....she's  "Please dont go..." (-_-)

She's closer to my husband..even thought he always bully her.

Like I say....

Favorite place to sleep..but now the basket has been long gone. Where? Ask her...

Anger

I admit, I’m a hot-tempered, sometimes. But nevertheless, no matter how angry I am, I will take a few minutes to step back and chill my racing heartbeat. 

I never stay angry for more than a day.

I know, anger is a very powerful feeling and if you can’t control it, it will lead you to nothing but regret.

When anger rises, think of the consequences.  Speak when you are angry and you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret.

 Anger is a feeling that makes your mouth work faster than your mind. Which is the reason why I choose to keep my mouth shut until I can ease my anger a bit.

Anger is poison. You must purge it from your mind or else it will corrupt your better nature. A moment of patience in a moment of anger saves you a hundred moments of regrets.

Anger doesn’t solve anything. It build nothing but it can destroy everything.

So, give yourself permission to feel anger, pain, and resentment. Relax, then let it go….

“Words can be said in bitterness and anger, and often there seems to be an element of truth in the nastiness. And remember, words don’t go away, they just echo around.”

Losing Myself

Why do I feel so unsettle…insecure…unease?

My mind keeps on running wild, thinking of everything, smallest to the biggest.

Where is the missing puzzle? Or what could have been the black hole?

I see a desert and the wind whistling…

Voices coming from everywhere but I couldn’t hear any of them properly. What are they mumbling over?

I don’t understand a thing. Why am I standing here, all alone?

It hurt so much that I’m dying to cry but no tears, no voice to shout it out.

How long has it been…I’ve stop living my life?

I lost my way and not even know where I should head for.

The fear took it all and I’m left nothing but all broken inside.

I’m sorry I’ve been so weak.

I’m sorry I’ve been so scared.

But does it worth it to losing myself…for the sake of others?

Lost Innocence

Wind whistling,
Snow glistening,
We try not to,
But we're all listening.

Loud screams,
Bad dreams,
It's very far,
But close it seems.

Sad day,
Lost our way,
All we can do,
Is simply pray.

Innocence gone,
Life no longer long,
We may not know,
But we're all doing wrong.

Joy lost,
The Holocaust,
We look to see,
Hearts covered in frost.

Wars fought,
Sins taught,
Making mistakes,
Hoping not to be caught.

Not taking blame,
Pushing for fame,
As advanced as we are,
We're still all untamed.


Too much pride,
Needing a guide,
We will deny it,
But behind lies we hide.

Hurting others,
Betraying brother,
Many forgetting,
To appreciate mothers.

Lies are fed,
Filling heart and head,
Through all of these years,
Innocent blood has been shed.

Children abandoned,
Lonely and stranded,
We're all wasting the life
That we have been handed.

Taking from the poor,
We're loving no more,
Fight to be free,
End up starting a war.

People starting fights,
No longer enjoying the sights,
While mere mortals are taking
Our God given rights.

Soldiers killed,
Void can't be filled,
Pay close attention,
For pure souls have been tilled.

Need to find peace,
Work together like geese,
But greatest of all,
The hate needs to cease.

StarBucks Testing

Entry kali ini “StarBucks”. (*_*)

Dengan jujur, sila jawab persoalan me ini.

Sapa pernah menjakunkan diri masuk café atau restoran mahal, pastu p tolak2 kwn utk order sebab x reti nak order apa sebab tak tahu menahu lansung menu kat situ?

Jangan malu2 mengaku sebab me adalah antara insan yg sungguh malang itu.   

(-_-)

Lepas tengo movie #SanAndreas, me pun ajak la si sinta & my kazen p try lepak kat #StarBucks. Alasan nya:

“Nak rasa ga mcm mana hebatnya minuman kat StarBucks yg org selalu agung2kan tu. Asal minum jer StarBucks, mesti dgn bangga post fb/instagram. 

Aku jadi penasaran”

Gitewwww~~ penasaran lah sgt.

So, kami pun masuk lah kat StarBucks Bintang Megamall.

Baru hujung kaki masuk situ, oh terasa kerdil diri ini melihat insan2 yg duduk lepak kat sna. Tapi sebab dah terlajak masuk, we all gagahkan langkah, masuk dengan nilai konfiden yg amat minimal.

Sampai kat kaunter, terkebil2 tak tahu nak order apa. Si Sinta ngan kazen dengan focusnya membaca menu yg tertera kat dinding nun di *atas sana.

*atas sana= Me x nmpak sebab rabun and malas nak pakai spec atau lens.

Nak sepetkan mata depan si hensem kat kaunter tu? No way. Jatuh saham. Kekeke.

Solution nya -> me ternampak board kecik depan kaunter tu yg promote sejenis minuman cokelat yg baru. Ting! Terus dpt idea.

“Saya nak yg ni.” Sambil tunjuk gambar tu. Dia pun angguk2 faham. Pastu dia tanya something. Entah topping ka apa, me x berapa dengar dek terlalu neves and kalut. So, angguk ja. Hahaha.

Mereka berdua pula pilih dari menu yg mereka baca.

Sedap tak sedap, tu belakang cerita. Nama pun try kan. J

Hasilnya ni… TADAAA…

*Sila jangan tanya apa nama minuman2 kami ni sebab sumpah…xda antara kami yg ingat (-_-)

Feedback – Minuman me sedap giler. Mereka punya? Toing2…PAHIT. Hahaha..

Congrats J

But really, it’s not bad pun sebenanrnya. It worth the try.

So lepas ni, tak lah jakun sangat klo nak lepas sana. J

Lelaki & Kuku Jari Kelingking Panjang

Entry kali ini d’inspirasikan oleh sang jejaka yang cecomel tomey2 kat office me. (Kekeke~~)

*Maaf, nama dirahsiakan. :D

Tak salah puji, kan…

Sajian mata semata-mata okeh. Takda niat lebih2. Weee~~

Gini ceritanya.. Balik dari breakfast, me masuk la ofis HSE.

Oh my. Tetiba. There he is..Kekeke… Cerita2 jap ngan Si Tomey, me TERperasan kuku jari kelingking dia panjang.

I mean…baru malam tadi me tegur my brother & cousin punya kuku (jari yg sama), sekarang si Tomey pun simpan kuku yang sma.

So………………….So……………………..So………………………

FYI. Me ni spesies yang tahap curiosity sangat tinggi. Jenis yang suka menyusahkan diri sendiri pikir bebanyak (even benda yg remeh) *sobsss, I’m sorry brain.

Me trs tanya:

“Lelaki mmg suka ker simpan kuku jari kelingking panjang?”

Kelip2 mata bulat dia pandang me. Awww.. hahaha.

Lama dia tak jawab. Suspen kot ngan soalan cepumas me. Beberapa saat kemudian baru dia jwb.

“Style. Nampak cool & macho.”

Me pulak yang kelip2 mata.

Say what??????

Macho???? (Gelak golek2 jap).

Seriously. Jwpn yang lansung me x terfikir! Macho kerrrr, bang?

(Okeh. Behave, mir…)

Me pun angguk2 ja la…understanding (la kunun). Ya la, takkan nak gelak kot. Kang terjepit(terasa) hati kecik dia. *Toink2.

Balik my office, me taip report senyum2 sorang. Lps tu yng me tfikir nak buat entry ni.

Kepada gadis2 ayuan luar sana, klo ada yang gila2 mcm me…curious pasal topic nih, meh sma2 kita rungkaikan.

Me refresh back time me tanya my cousin dulu pasal kuku ni…

Untuk apa simpan kuku yang tuh panjang?

Antara jawapan “macho” dia (_”)

1.    Untuk korek hidung! Lol. Gila x senonoh punya reason… Hahaha. Me pun trs, hey..don’t touch me. (O_o)

2.    Untuk garu2. Opcos la. Yang ni me x heran la. Sebab??? Mlm tadi me buli dorang garu2 gatal (bintik2 merah ruam panas) me. Kui kui kui. Okay apa kan. J Put it to good use.

3.    Korek telinga. (@_@) Wehh…cotton tips/buds me melambak kat bilik. Asal nak korek guna jari tueee…I pity the little finger… Oho~

So far ni la jawapan dorang. Hampir sama. So me assume, memang ni lah benefit kuku tu. (T_T)

Jwpn yg lain, mcm si Tomey kata…setaillllll macho gitew (~_~)

Lucu but…no judgement okeh. Memang peseen guy zmn sekarang kot.

Eleh..mengata guy, pompuan lagi ummphh kot. Kuku mengalahkan kuku Mak lampir and miss langsuir.

Lelaki simpan yng kelingking jer. Pompuan?

Ni dah kes parah (T_T) Over sesangat.

Suatu ketika dulu, me pun minat ga simpan kuku panjang. Tiap hari tukar kaler okeh.

Sampai terkupas dah kuku tu sebab banyak kali kena cat, padam balik, cat balik. 

Susah2 jerrr… Mcm la orang pandang sangat jari2 tue~~

Lama2 me xnak dah simpan kuku panjang. Tak baik untuk hygiene.

Ya lah. Me suka makan pakai tangan. Klo kuku panjang, makan pakai tangan…maigadddd…

Effect after…terkuil2 nak cungkil keluar sisa mknn dri kuku. Euwwww! Dalam seharian tu, berapa juta benda kita pegang. Bacteria dah berpesta muda-mudi kat dalam. 

So, kotor! Me pun tobattt…

Lgi satu, me kan suka pegang baby… 

Mak pesan, klo nak pegang baby..especially nak mandikan or masukkan baju, sapu losyen dorang…kuku takleh panjang.

Logik nya, kulit depa kan masih lembut (esp kat kepala). So, ibu ibu di luar sana, potong kuku tu. Takut tercalar kulit mulus si comel anda.

Reason terakhir. Me ni orang dapur (calon isteri yang baik nih). Keh keh keh. Kunun nya. Tapi sampai sekarang tak kawen2 (T_T). Puriber alone.

Me selalu masak basuh pinggan apa suma. In summary, buat kerja rumah banyak pegang air. 

Apa kejadian nya klo kita byk pegang air?

Kuku jadi lembut. Anytime dia leh tercabut terkopek kat mana2 part. Hodoh okeh. 

Memang tak sesuai la nak simpan panjang2.

And that’s why me buang jejauh mungkin minat berkuku panjang tu dulu.

*Nak genggam tangan pun sakit klo kuku panjang sgt.

Apa pun, itu dari kita sendiri nak decide kan. Klo reti jaga, okay la…apa salahnya kan?

So, ladies…tetengok sikit orang (lelaki) kesayangan anda. Klo kuku dia panjang, sebelum pegang tangan, suruh dia cuci dulu…Kekeke…*Gurauuuu jewwwww….

A very good friend aka advisor

Chaaak! 

 p/s: Don't bother people that see and talk only of the negative thought coz they'll bring you down. Be with people that shine with positive thought. Your mind is what leads your life. 

(O_<) Live your life~~~