Don't Compete & Stop Gossiping. Be your own kind of beautiful!

What is sexy?

Honestly, I'm nut with all the post in internet comparing fat woman with skinny woman.

It's kinda divided woman into two types. Chub and thin. Does it really matter?

Why compete over the look while the most important part is what lies within us.

Never ever judge someone based on the outlook appearance. You can't know someone just from the outside look. 

Chub woman making fun of the thin one. The thin one teasing the chub one. What's the purpose? What are they trying to prove?

For me, those who loves to compare and compete for such thing are the ones that actually feel insecure of herself. 

Beauty lies on the beholder eyes and the sense of beauty is different for everyone. 

Be your kind of beautiful. You like curve? Work for it. You want to be chub (like I do), eat like monster (like me too).

Focus on yourself. It's your goal, why involve others?

If you envy someone, turns it into a motivation instead on finding ways to insult them just because you cannot be like them. 

Sometime our physical look aren't something we can fully control. I eat like monster, 24/7 with food and yet never gain much weight. I have friend who's on strict diet and eat little but gain weigh easily. 

It's not even an option for some case. 

Try to understand each other. Look more into their "inside" than concern more on the outside.

For me sexy is intelligence. Intelligent woman is sexy but the sexiest one is woman with brain and heart.

Someone with big heart and full of knowledge. Kind and gentle but also very independent & reliable. 

She knows her value and what she deserves. Aware of what's worth the fight and what's need to walk away from.

Woman with big goals and work hard to achieve them. Woman who motivates & inspires other. 

That is beauty & sexy.

So stop looking around you to compete and gossip on making fool of other woman. 

Start to focus on yourself. Be what you want to be. Listen to others who speak of advise and motivation and shut your ears to negativity.

Remember, people will always have something to say, whether you do good or otherwise. 

Be smart to ignore that.

I'm not perfect but I'm intend to be better than I was yesterday. 

For those who wronged me, I forgive all of ya. And for those I've hurt, I hope you'll forgive me sooner than later.

Now...I'm gonna work my ass to achieve my goal. It's my life, it's my journey, it's my story. I'll be the one who write my own story. 

To those who suffer from depression out there, I'm telling you this.

I know how hard it is to hit the bottom rock and to go thru the night with your eyes wide open and your mind goes numb. That feeling of wanted to off and disappear to somewhere no one knows you. 

I understand. It's okay to fall no matter how many times but always remember to pick yourself up and stand again, even stronger than before.

It's just a one bad day or one bad month, not a bad life. 

Something better will come sooner than you thought. Have faith in yourself and trust God knows better.


:) 

My little sweet escape...Violet the most adorable pupp!!

Dear Diary,

Here I am again. You see, this might be the thousand times I’ve tried to write something but literally, I have no idea at all of what to write.

I mean…I’m staring at this blank page with my heart pounding to write something but the mind goes…nothing!

This is very frustrating. My heart is speaking like crazy but my mind couldn’t find a way to translate it into real words.

What’s going on, really?

So, I must write something today, doesn’t matter if it sounds like I lost my mind (which I might if I end up writing nothing again).

Okay. Searching… Loading…

(Ten minutes later…)

Okay, let’s talk about one of my puppies.

This is Violet. I know she’s fat, overloaded with my love. J

12 October 2015, we first met and poor little thing, she was very scared when the previous owner pass her to me.

I adopt her from the Zero Society, Miri.

She’s very girly and shy. I remember chasing her under the table or hiding in some corner in the house, but she’s a good girl.

She always behave especially when we have guest coming over and understand every little thing we told her.

As you can see, her hobby is obviously “eat”. I’m a crazy eater, trust me, she’s worst.

Favorite food is cat food or fish. Can related?

Every time I give her the dog food, she goes “naah” or looking at me like “you’re joking, right?”

Oh boy. She’s a cat dog.

Once she’s done eating, her bowl no need to be clean anymore. It’s a “new bowl”. Lol.

Every day I come back from work, even before I open the gate, she’ll lie down…

“Come on. Fast. Rub my tummy.”

That fat tummy need at least a minute rubbing session.

She's one of my sweet escape from this dramatic life ("_). 

Begging for hugssss every time I got back from work! <3

Rub my belly...now!

When I'm about to left to work....she's  "Please dont go..." (-_-)

She's closer to my husband..even thought he always bully her.

Like I say....

Favorite place to sleep..but now the basket has been long gone. Where? Ask her...

Anger

I admit, I’m a hot-tempered, sometimes. But nevertheless, no matter how angry I am, I will take a few minutes to step back and chill my racing heartbeat. 

I never stay angry for more than a day.

I know, anger is a very powerful feeling and if you can’t control it, it will lead you to nothing but regret.

When anger rises, think of the consequences.  Speak when you are angry and you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret.

 Anger is a feeling that makes your mouth work faster than your mind. Which is the reason why I choose to keep my mouth shut until I can ease my anger a bit.

Anger is poison. You must purge it from your mind or else it will corrupt your better nature. A moment of patience in a moment of anger saves you a hundred moments of regrets.

Anger doesn’t solve anything. It build nothing but it can destroy everything.

So, give yourself permission to feel anger, pain, and resentment. Relax, then let it go….

“Words can be said in bitterness and anger, and often there seems to be an element of truth in the nastiness. And remember, words don’t go away, they just echo around.”